yep, gng for camp in 2 days time ?
havent started packing, and theres so much stuff that i need to bring.
i dont have this, dont have that.
gotta buy this and that /:
ugh think im gna skip service tmrw, doubt my parents would allow me to go anyway /:

ugh left the 2 pinnafores that janice gave me in the LRT
called SMRT, they said that their office is closed
and i have to call back on monday
and im having camp on monday HELLO ?
zzzz

and my mother's like comparing me with others ?
like, how high pple can get for their results and etc.
and she doesnt want to get facts right, no wait, she doesnt trust me, she'd rather trust what my other friend said?
i mean like, ive already tried my best.
okay maybe i didnt, but at least i improved ?
i remained in the special stream ?
thats smth to celebrate, instead, what i get was comparison, is this fair ?
man, this sucks /:

ugh, i dont know if shes being over sensitive, or im the one with the problem.
its like, 'cos she quarelled with tk during o lvls, so what i wanted, was just to motivate tk and want him to score well for o lvls.
sent him emails and asked him to work hard. is that wrong ?
and now yinzhi saw everything in his inbox, and she got so angry /:
she warned me if i contact tk again, there'll be no such things as shes my jie.
okay seriously, in the first place, i didnt really want to be her mei X:

she said that tk promised her not to contact me, but he still did.
and i promised her not to contact him, and i still did X:
and her links used to link me as ' gwen; meimei <3 '
and now its just like one plain ' gwen ' ?
i know, im part of the cause.
aaron said shes trying to gain attention ?
i dont know luh.
she goes around tagging people saying im so sad! or smth.
i mean, if you are, who would go arnd telling pple im so sad?
i mean, it doesnt make any sense?

on the other hand, if im in yinzhi's shoes, i might be jealous.
but not to this extend, maybe i would just tell tk ?
tell tk that i wouldnt want him to be so close to her ?
i mean, he would understand right ?
ahhh and she's like, saying, ' i know you're blaming me for causing you to lose a friend, you can have your friend back, but if you want me back its up to you'

is she trying to blow the matter up?
its just an email, hello ?
ugh ....

and like, i dont want anybody to know that im actually feeling like this.
in fact, i dont really wanna care.
but, im kinda the cause of it luh
im not sure if i wanna contact tk anymore, but ...
ahhhhhhh, zzz peaceout -

i guess i'll take one step at a time, and see what happens